Monday, May 26, 2008

Happy Memorial Day!

Is it right to say Happy Memorial Day? I think so. This was a question that was brought up today while enjoying our BBQ chicken and hanging with family Your memories of your lost loved ones should make you happy. I know mine do. I know my Gram and Pup wouldn't want us sitting around crying over them when we could be laughing and having a good time like we used to when they were still around. My memorial day was a pretty good one, my sister was here from Minnesota we had a house full of people 2 aunts all my sisters and thier kids and husbands seems the only thing missing was Jon but next time this year he will be with us celebrating too. I made BBQ chicken on the grill, oven baked potatoes with my secret seasonings on them ramen noodle salad and lots of fun and laughter. The only thing that put a damper on the party was the fact that is was 34 degrees outside and I do believe I saw a few snowflakes. I thought memorial day was the unofficial start to summer, hmmm if this is any indication to what the rest is going to be like. I think Im moving......

Saturday, February 23, 2008

i knew I could do it

you know there comes a time in your life when you decide you can't wait around forever for someone else to do it for you....I had one of those moments today when I looked at my bathroom and decided I was sick of looking at it so I was going to do something about it. I went to the local hardware store and bought a nice bright white can of paint and a new cabinet sink and faucet to go a long with it. Walked around the store bought my own tools (that Jon will NOT I repeat will NOT be allowed to touch) and went home and installed the sink my own damn self. I feel like I am on top of the world. It is great to be able to do things on your own. Things that are a "man's job" and do them better then any man could or would have ever done. I am thinking I went into the wrong field instead of fixing people I think I should have been fixing houses. Its awesome. Watch out Bob Vila here I come..........

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

what do I do?

What do I do when my baby doesn't feel good and only wants her "Daddy" who is 6000 miles away?

Wednesday, February 6, 2008


you know what really pisses me off? (sorry for the curse but I can't think of another way to describe my feelings at this time)

People who assume. Don't assume things about me. I brought my children to a new dentist after having a horrible experience with a fill in dentist at the old place we used to go to and the office manager of the new place is not exactly one of my favorite people. I cannot stand people who talk down to others. This woman at the new dentist office talks to me like I am a 5 year old and cannot afford to pay for my children's dentist appointment co-pay. Well it all started out at the first dentist appointment I brought them to at the new place. After the girls had thier teeth cleaned and the dentist told me they needed to have a few little things done to prevent cavities and Katy needed some teeth extracted because she refuses to give up her baby teeth for some reason, I asked the receptionist if she could give me some idea of what it was gonna cost becuase insurance only pays 80%. She went into some long drawn out schpeel about what they have to charge and what insurance pays for and what the alloted amount is for this and that and how they have payment plans and finally tells me that my balance is $30 for that day so I pay and go on my merry way. Yesterday I brought Anna there to have her tooth fixed and I don't feel good I have an ear infection in both ears and an upper respiratory infection with a hacking cough and a stuffed nose. The first person I see when I walked in was the office manager she greets Anna is a sing song voice which is fine for Anna and then does the same to me. I reply with a little smile and a hi and anybody with one eye could see I feel like hell I sit down and Anna goes to the back to have her teeth done.

The dentist wants to talk to me after Anna is done and she just tells me that Anna did well no problems So as I am guiding Anna back to the waiting room I say Hey Anna we can't leave yet we have to make another appointment. I walk by the office manager who is busy with another patient (I can see thisI don't expect her to stop with her and deal with me right now) but the office manager stops and says "you'll have to take a seat I am busy with another client and she was here first." well no shit I think and I said " I can see that" So I patiently wait my turn.

She tells me she can help me now so I sit in the seat infront of her desk and wait for her to finish up with what ever she is doing while Anna bounces around next to me trying to find gum in my purse and whatever else a 5 year old does when she wants to leave somewhere that is boring the hell out of her.

The lady procedes to tell me the charges and blah blah blah and then tells me I have a balance from my last visit. I say I paid $30 like you told me when I was last here. Well apparently that was for my appointment not Katy and Anna's and I still owe $87 so I ask her for what cause I work to hard and put up with too much crap to just go handing out my hard earned money to whom ever says they want it. She she calls up some chic from the back and tells her to dig out all the paperwork and insurance crap from last time I went there. I don't need all this she just had to say well I didn't charge you from when Katy and Anna had there teeth cleaned I just charged for your cleaning and some mouth wash for sensative gums. I give her my debit card and said Ok whatever I'll pay with this I don't feel good I just want to go home. She charges my account and keeps flapping her gums asking about what is wrong with me and she could tell I didn't feel good blah blah blah. Well as a nurse I know it's not very nice to ask people about illnesses in the middle of a waiting room full of strangers. I ignore her question and say well have a good day and Anna and I leave.

Tonight when I get home after a long day of browsing at some stores and wasting time until I can get the girls from school the phone rings and it is my "friend" from the dentist office. the first thing she asks is if I am feeling better which is fine. I tell her I am on antibiotics and things are getting better then she continues on about what they are going to be doing to Katy and it might cost more money then I can pay and she thinks we should set up a payment plan and it's hard to get bills paid but it's important to pay on time and I was like "whoa how much is this gonna cost?' im thinking in the $1000 and she tells me a little under $200. Then I am pissed because this lady is talking to me like she feels sorry for me and she can make arrangements. WHAT MAKES HER ASSUME I CAN"T PAY $200? That pisses me off. I might not want to but I can pay $200 What made her look at me and right away assume that I didn't have any money and that I might be living paycheck to paycheck. I don't have hand me down clothes that have rips and tears my hair is clean and well brushed I was wearing jeans and a t-shirt my kids are freshly bathed every morning and have nice stuff. I drive a nice car I graduated from college. Im not an office manager who learned my job 50 years ago with on the job training who doens't have any education. But she assumed that I was poor and she needed to give me her sympathy. I politely said to her on the phone that "I could afford it after all my husband is over in Iraq making hazardous pay fighting in the war". That shut her up and she said have a good night and hung up.


Thursday, January 17, 2008

I wish I could be a better writer...I have so many thoughts running through my head when I start writing these blogs I don't know where to start or what direction to go in. Maybe with time I can get everything out that I want to talk about or maybe not. Since Jon has been gone I don't sleep very much so I have plenty of time at night to write but I just can't seem to focus on just one thing. I would love to just get my feelings out on different subjects like days when my kids make me crazy or days when someone at work makes me angry. I guess I just don't feel passionate about anything enough to have to come home and tell the world about it. I wish I did. Mainly I am angry at the moment I am angry and happy at the moment I am happy and then it all goes away when I have some time to just process the situation and by the time I get home to talk about it, I just don't want to. Or maybe Im afraid of hurting someone elses feelings by venting my opinions. Who knows?

I think I can I think I can

I am feeling proud of myself right now so I have to brag a little bit...I finally learned how to run our snowblower. It took a little yelling and cursing but I managed with the help of my future brother in law to get it started and I got rid of the 6 inches of snow that was in my driveway all by myself. It was awesome. With Jon gone I am learning a lot of things about myself, things that I am able to do with minimal or no help from others. It is nice to know that I can take care of myself and my daughters if need be. I figured out how to change the filters on the furnace all by myself and I learned how shitty it really is to take out the garbage everyday. Im also learning how much I enjoy Jon being here to do the things I don't like to do. LOL.....
Oh yeah I also learned that I should write down my password if I want to keep a blog...Hopefully I will remember it this time.....